Ran Across an old iphone video I made the day before my first bodybuilding competition on September 30th, 2016 – the day before I knew bodybuilding had changed my life forever.

Looking at this video reminded me of not only how scary this whole thing (competing in bodybuilding) was for at the time but how scared I was to do certain things in general.  Things that back then I wouldn’t dare admit scared me.  At the same time I also knew that there would be no growth if I sat in this one place of fear forever – and the place I sat – I wouldn’t wish it on the most cold-hearted person in the world.  This is what made it so important for me to do this first competition on my own.  The process itself took time away from hanging out with my friends and a lot of social events because of the time that went into training.  It was a battle with my mind. Me vs Me. Did I have what it took  to go beyond the limitations of my current situation. There were times I didn’t think so.  A lot of times I cried… a lot…and I cried even more when I did it…. and won! I cried and laughed and cried and danced and criedlaugheddanced and repeat! Going through this alone was the only way I was going to be able to quite my mind long enough to face my fears.

I’m not saying do everything alone, that’s crazy; but for some things and you’ll know what they are, you’re going to have wave goodbye to everyone, walk into the room of your mind, close the door, and face your fears. I stayed in the room for almost a straight year.  Trust me- your future self  will thank you.

I made a few videos back then to document my journey and I’m looking forward to sharing them here with you on my blog.